I'm apathetic. Anyone who knows me will readily agree. I just can't seem to motivate myself to care. It's either this or that and either way, it's fine by me. I've lost opinion; expectation.

I'm sullen. Disappointed with life and therefore disappointed with myself. It's searching but never finding.

It's typical me. I'm starting to figure it out. If I can't have it all, then I don't want any of it. There it is in all of its wretched glory.

Solution: I need to change my mindset.

Reality: I am not ready to change.

"Lit a light on my gloom and now there's only a half moon...Hey, hey moon, I think 

  I figured it out. I think I'm coming about. My whole world is in tune and much clearer now."